True friendships during Coronavirus

There is no right or wrong way to feel during this pandemic. I repeat: THERE IS NO RIGHT OR WRONG WAY TO FEEL DURING THIS PANDEMIC.

I have really strong days where I feel confident, in control and overloaded with optimism. The next day, I endure the utmost anxiety and deep sadness. Needless to say, some days are more productive and positive than others…

The only consistent thing during this entire quarantine has been my truest friends supporting me every step of the way. I’ve been in touch with a lot of my best friends during this time, and their reciprocation fills me with warmth and hope.

Madison & KayLee
Carolyn
Terry & Brandon
Donna
Danielle
Cassidy
Zachary

I hope you’re all staying safe, healthy and happy through this pandemic!

Everyday Resolutions

Happy New Year! I hope you all enjoyed the holidays with your loved ones.

I never establish New Years resolutions per se; however, I believe in continuous personal growth and becoming better every single day.

Things I’m scraping:

  • Allowing others to bring me down
  • One-way friendships/giving people too many chances
  • Comparing myself to others/feeling inadequate
  • Not putting myself first (sleepless nights, etc.)
  • Pressure to be “normal” (no need to follow others’ status quo)

Things I’m embracing:

  • Spending quality time with the best people
  • More travel (duh, it’s me!)
  • Volunteering more
  • Gaining 10+ pounds
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PS: please note the new name and domain change 🙂

Depression

I’m going to come right out and say it: I have depression. I’ve known that something was “off” since I was about 10 years old, but things really took a turn for the worst when I was 17. And at 26, things are REALLY BAD and have been since late 2018.

During my routine spring cleaning in November, I decided to go through some old photos. While recalling memories of how my family once was, I felt numb. I kind of shrugged it off like, “well that was nice, but it’s in the past now.” What really hit me were the photos of how happy I was as a child. I was outgoing, genuinely excited about everything, and didn’t have a care in the world if others thought I was crazy. I was unapologetic 100% of the time.

When did she go on vacation and never return home? How can I get her to come back and visit me, or even stay forever? These are the necessitous things I’d like to know…